I Forgot

My apologies to you and your heart
I forgot to take care of it from the start
My apologies to you the torture of your mind
I should have been honest the entire time
My apologies for playing with your soul
I was too busy being immature, I refused to grow
My apologies for tearing down your spirit
I should have loved you and told you
you needed to hear it
I apologize because I failed you too many times
I fed you too many lies
took for granted how hard you tried
did not match your effort with mine
I forgot that it was me who pursued you so strong
I forgot too many things for far too long
I should have remembered that my actions
my consistency
my effort was what won your heart
I should have remembered
to continue the same efforts
to show I still desire
the same heart
if only
but I forgot

What is it worth?

I want you to let me know sweetheart
how much is time with you worth
Yes you are enchanting
I can honestly speak that I am physically attracted
You have yet to entreat my mind
yet my body feels like it is
desiring to be active
Yet I still need to know
are you worth my home
the one I have happily built
me and my rib
my love
the woman I cherish and adore
the one who can
and already has given me
so much more
than right now your body can offer
Are you worth my peace
my peace of mind
peace of spirit
and the piece of my character
I will lose
by becoming that cliche
the unfaithful
the lying
the one with secrets
the one who
cannot be trusted
Or maybe you are telling me
that the passion you can give
is worth more than my time
the time I could spend on improving
becoming a better man
instead of being just
a regular man
the stereotypical man
the man expectations are wasted on
the man loyalty is wasted on
Again this is just a point of inquiry
I give you much credit for
your attempt to
seduce me
just let me know
is the hour I spent with you
worth me
losing all of me?

Proud to be Present

I am your worst nightmare come to life, I am that piece of black that shows in your dreams when all you search for is light, I am that overpowering presence that makes you fearful when you sleep, my only issue with that is it is based on your fear of who I will become and your inadequacy.

For really what I am is that portrait of strength and dignity and that keeps you aloof, I am that pillar of wisdom and knowledge and that keeps you feeling I am superior to you, I am that enchanter of knowledge and I bestow it upon others, I am that teacher of courtesy and you rather harbor disrespect.  I will show you how you have multiple paths and still allow you to lead and go on your own, whether wayward or not I will always show you the path home, for guidance, love, reassurance, and peace of mind, for comfort, understanding, and a place to always enjoy your time.
And as you continue to grow, I will stand by your side walking through it all with you, whether in spirit or in body, this will always remain the truth, I am that groomer of the soul, I bestow upon you the acknowledgment of real character, I have to thank those who failed to do so as it helped me to show you better.  When the light is dark, I am your knight, and when the sun shines high, I stand back so you can shine your own light.  The first King that a Princess will love, the first King that a Prince dares to become the successor of, my path is to be the groomer of the leaders to come, for being royalty, although still young, leads to being older and great at being one.

A Princess now to become a Queen, a Prince now to become a King, I assist in this endeavor to lead you to that path, I am a father, a teacher, a rock, a dad.  This is just a reminder for my comrades in arms who never give up the fight, raising the generation to come is not something we take light, for since we have been blessed with this position and title, for our children we will always be that fighter.

We are not alone in this task so be present for the fight, the woman was not blessed alone, she should not work solely through this task.  Step up and know that your role is needed and important and needed, one can not be the other, both roles must be completed.  Be there for your own and you can also be that mentor, this is no admonishment, this is purely the truth, we all desire love and time, your child deserves it from you. With great Kings and Queens leading the young, as a whole we can do a great many things, this is showing appreciation to those participating.



Explosive Control

How long has it been since someone took control?
Took over your senses, your emotions, your feelings,
Within their hands is the key to your soul
Not the guidance of where you will be headed
But the way that you can be touched and invested
The way you can be charmed and seduced
The way to a new level of pleasure
Creating a new passion inside of you
Those moments where a touch can send chills and fire
Running down your spine
Those instances where a kiss creates weakness
Strength and power all at the same time
You feel you go from questioning your prowess
To understanding how much you are that enchantress
By being shown that someone has that much confidence
The possibilities are endless to what you can accomplish
This level of connection is not taken
It is willfully given
The control is not misused
The advantage is in the manipulation
Yes, those moments where your body salivates
Dripping wet from the anticipation
Exciting and Incredible
Those moments where even just a whisper
Can create an eruption
This level of trust and being in sync creates
Beyond levels of simple growth
These are moments of inspiration


We have all felt it before, we have all heard it before, we have all experienced it before, and yet it was not enough at the time, we want more.  We want more than just the little greetings and affection upon leaving, we want more than just the physical intimacy yet not the one that gives you the feeling of security, we want more than just someone to talk to about the normal, we want someone who will listen to the bad and be glad, glad that we are sharing, glad that they are able to be the one caring about what goes on in our lives, they are excited to be the one receiving the conversation.  Being at that point in your lives, you want more than a little, you want more than a lot, you want all of what you desire, and will not settle but just a part.  Unwilling to settle for someone who desires your body but not your heart, not satisfied with the one who wants your heart but will not take care of it, and disgusted with the one who desires to take all from you, heart, mind, body, and soul and all they want to do is tear you down, destroy you until you feel old.  This is far past the time to accept just anything, truth be told, you do not need anything from those people, but you do want everything from the right individual.