Silent Expression

Sometimes the little things that we ask are the biggest factors of the heart.
We ask and yearn for the simple things because we love
the feeling.
That comfort
that warmth
from feeling wanted and desired
that pride you feel to stand next to
the person you love
that joy and security you feel
knowing the same person will tell the world
proudly how happy they are to have you
While to some
it may seem like a grand gesture
to be claimed
status acknowledging the same
expression online
expression in public
sharing with those close
however, why?
Is it a fear that it will be coveted?
We take worldly possessions
that are no more than
fabric, leather, plastic and electronic components
these we show proudly
to have them noticed
to have them appreciated
While we do not vocalize it
“HEY!!! come look at my shirt”
I still see we are more proud of cloth
than love
We are more proud of hair
than affection
We are more confident in the individuality
of ink on our body
than the individual whom we share our bed
and body with.
There is that feeling of not belonging
that comes with the lack of expression
Shame and the kind of selfish
irrationality
that creates
insecurity
You may say
to not let others in your relationship
into your business
into your next move
your plans
yet expression is simply itself
and involvement
requires reactions
The truth
we are okay sharing what we know
what we are sure of
that our love is unconditional
what will not break our heart
what will not make us relive the past.
Easier to share
speak on
express
our children
frustrations
some accomplishments
those moments garner
a more showing of pride
than our love life.
We may possibly
be proud internally
possibly even on the outside
in the most minor of ways
however
that fear of that pain
that wondering about the world
comes to haunt us more 
when it is about our heart
To me it is worth the proclamation
not everyone has lived a life
where unconditional existed
There are a great deal of us
who never felt like we belonged
were wanted
desired to have around
A feeling of pride
is not something that everyone has been
exposed to
Could be
that treasure you have no 
has always been treated
more as the trash.
 
 
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